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Thursday, November 26, 2009 ,

5:51 AM

it's the 26th of november.

Hello everybody(:

I am. back. so hi.

About my previous post, friends told me they've never actually seen me like that before.

well hello(: Melissa Chow here(:

anyway. I would like to thank the people who gave me silent support, who were really there for me through it all.

It wuz really impossible for me to keep going without your support. Again, Thank you.

Things happened. Many. Be it happy, unhappy, it all happened.

I'm glad that i did not go around things, i'm glad i faced them.

Im glad ive been turning to God. God is good. And i know God loves me. God loves each and every one of us.

Im beginning to realize its not the end of the world when things seem to be at their worst.

There's always a solution to a problem.

Ive regained the friendship of friends. Ive regained, hopefully, their trust. Now that its over, im not gonna dwell too much on it.

About my family, i know there's nothing much i can do to change things. All i can do now is respect the decisions of parties and support whoever's in the need of my support.

Don't mind my english today. Im exhausted.

Physically, and emotionally.

Sometimes i cry over the smallest thang like my boyf. giving late replies.

Go what the hell you loserific bitch all you want, im telling you now i dont gv a shit. I seriously dont.

Ive become more sensitive and ive been crying alot.

Over something Marcus said the other day, even over what his mom said.

What is wrong with me.

Started spacing out during gym, controlled the tears.

Start argueing with somebody via sms, then regret what i say.

What the bloody hell is wrong with me.

I dont know what's going on around me anymore, somehow a tiny bit of me tells me i dont wanna know.

God, please help me.

I feel so claustrophobic. I feel so lifeless on the inside.

I feel so frustrated. I feel so ~~FUCKING~~ angry. I feel so. so. SO hurt.

Ill try to drop the topic. Ill try my very best.

Hung out with friends. And this hol is like all about gym training. Bt of course, there's time for Marcus as well.

Went shopping with mummy like alot. I love her.

Mum bought me my x'mas present already.

Its a pair of Guess shoes which costs almost $140.

Its a 4 inch wedge. So yea. Ilove it. Thanks mum(:

Idk what to say anymore.

Im really tired. Not just physically.

tata for now. Ill be back soon.

~iloveMarcus~

ciaos(:

` thanks for loving me, you're doing it perfectly.

Labels: Gymming the pain away.

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