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Friday, September 3, 2010 ,

2:56 AM

heyheyhey !

`sorry, it wuz a distraction x)

So.
History's history, guess it's time to move on !
Dont wanna waste my life away bein unhappy and letting the unnecessary affect me. I used to cry and get all depressed by the slightest provocation but right now, i feel that whether i cry or not is meaningless. So y'can try hard to hurt me any way, but all i can say is that i dont gv that much of an RIP anymore, so you'll just be wasting your time, darlin(: And evn if you were t'try doin that, please do that for a reason. Yknow, dont go fucking people all over not knowing why, or, letting the person know wth's gg on(:

Idk if my new personality has stagnated but i guess the emotional abandonment and detachment i felt's the cause. It just went all stale and i didnt wanna shrug it off like nothing hppned, but i didnt wanna make you feel like you were the only one in control either. People dont just 'fall outta' whatever as if they were changing channels on the television and stations on the radio.Those emotions cant be turned off just like that. But why did it for me? I thought that emotion could withstand everything and that all those 'heartfelt' apologies carried true meaning.

Boy, lookin back now, i wuz just so immature.

Yea, i wuz kept in a bubble of inactivity, self-doubt and self loathing. All the negative forces. And as for you, you were just floating there attempting to label me. Darlin, only I, and I alone can define who i am and what is acceptable in my life; nobody else including you has that job(:

I guess im done grieving over the loss of an unfufilled relationship in which i ended.

I'm starting to think that whn on that emotional roller coaster, i wuznt lost at all, just temporarily misplaced. There were goals i once had for my life, and they're stl there under the surface. Some things might be distractions with a recipe for dissappointment attatched. I dont want that. I'm in control of my destiny so get outta my way. You've got no power over me anymore, baby ! .

` Mel.

Labels: feelings change; Everything changes., people change, Seasons change

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